I Don't Trust Myself With... Oh, Anything

It turns out I'm a huge second-guesser. I'll pretty much second-guess any little thing you say or do. Oh wait... no, that's not exactly true. I'll pretty much second-guess any little thing I say or do... and pretty much believe in whatever you say or do (do you think maybe that's a problem in and of itself?... I DO... but we'll leave that for another day).

Anyway, I second-guess myself... in everything. Tonight, it's the taxes. There was a TV show on a while back. It was probably a few years ago by now. I think it was while we were still in PA. I could look it up... I know it was Diane Lane's boyfriend/husband who starred in it (Josh Brolin, right?). It was about a newly-elected senator. Right up my alley, huh? Well, this new senator, on one of the episodes (there weren't many... I don't think it made it very long), was doing his own taxes. His staffers were trying to get him to let a professional do it for him; but he firmly believed that (especially since he was now in charge of helping to write the tax laws) an intelligent American citizen should be able to do his or her own taxes. I let a CPA do my taxes the first couple of years, I think. And for anyone who's self-employed or has complicated situations, hey... CPA it till your heart's content. But I don't think my tax situation is all that complicated. It should be relatively straightforward. Plus, I really love playing with numbers. And I delight in keeping meticulous details about what I spend (category, amount, etc.). So, I've got the tools (& hopefully the smarts... my dad would be all kinds of disappointed in me if I didn't reap something from that Carolina edumacation) to do my own darn taxes.

But, hello, second-guess city. I've had everything ready to go now for at least a week, and I've been unable to just hit the button. What if...? What if...? What if...? Just file already. So tonight I did. Done. Right or wrong, good or bad, friend or foe.

I wish I could just trust myself. In everything.

And that TV show was called "Mister Sterling" (and it ran in 2003). Yes, I looked it up. You know I'd second-guess myself all night if I didn't get the answer.