Forgive Me. I'm Just Trying to Knock the Dust Off and Hone the Ol' Blogging Skills

Wow... it's been a long time since I've been back here. It's so easy to forget to blog every once in a while. Just like it's easy to forget to be healthy (eat well and exercise). (I've been falling down on those goals, too.) But, here I am. Yet another renewed effort at "Who Wants to Know?"

Speaking of "Who Wants to Know?", it's probably time for a redesign. I'll put that on the to-do list. Who am I kidding? It probably won't happen anytime soon. But, at least it'll be on the list!

So, I've been out 'n about in the non-blogging world for a long while. I didn't even glance at the date of my last post. I do know there was one short one within the last year... to which some random person who stumbled upon my little corner of the interweb called me lame. THANKS, buddy. 'Preciate it. And there was a saved draft of a post about counting my blessings from a few months back. But that was just a non-starter and never really made anything of itself. (Not because there weren't tons of blessings to count... probably more like too many to number, and the topic was too overwhelming to even consider finishing!) Basically, this blog was catharsis for me back when I was blogging religiously; and when I didn't need the outlet anymore (in other words, when the divorce was final and I moved back home to start a new life), it was easy to just let it go. But the bottom line is: I like writing. Well, I don't enjoy the process, but I love the end result. Most of the time. Other times, probably like today, it's too hard to see through the words to really feel the meaning. But I'm determined to hit the "Publish Post" button, so better to get on with it than spend all day trying to perfect the story.

ANYWAY... Today, in my life, is all about renewal. Yesterday was about disappointment. Let's cover yesterday first. Disappointments are, well, disappointing. It's not the end of the world, no. But it sure can feel like it when you're let down. It's the end of one road when it's hard to see the beginning of another. It's another wasted month, the inability to accomplish something you'd really like to do. A big fat splat as you faceplant when you're just trying to put one foot in front of the other. It's one more 'what's wrong with me?' You grieve for a moment that feels like it could last forever. Disappointment is big.

And then it's not. The sun comes up on a beautiful tomorrow. In a book about 'God's whisperings', you see an inspiring verse about hope. You hear a sermon about the prodigal son, and the preacher inserts a little tidbit about the best sentences ever written. You find one of the best sentences ever written... again in the book about 'God's whisperings'. You wake up to the first anniversary of a yucky (weather-wise) day that celebrates one year of happiness together. You start a cleaning project that gets easier every time you donate clothes & what-have-you to the church yard sale. You start the next month and live for another possibility of success. You have a beer and schedule a go-blonde-again day and start looking for next time.

I wish I could say I'll be back tomorrow. I may not. But I would like to be. Hopefully, I'll remember to be and want to be and actually try to be. Until then...

Oh, and the verse and sentence:
1) "There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off." Proverbs 23:18.
2) "My heart is ever at your service." William Shakespeare.

Aren't those just beautiful?

I hope you're having a sunny, beautiful day... wherever you find yourself today.